Thursday, July 24, 2014

Todays playlist=)

Hi all,

Hope you are doing great! Here in Sweden still so hot and nice summer weather with over 30 degrees=)

Todays playlist is one I made for a fashion show a while ago with cool music to hang around to.


Friday, July 18, 2014


One of my favourite artists is Melody Garlot and today I clean the place and listen to this album and enjoy being off work=)

Have a happy Friday everyone!

Monday, July 14, 2014

Doing good=)

Hi all!

At the moment I feel so blessed cause I have gotten a really nice summer job at an elderly home where I really enjoy working. My collegues and the sweet care takers are just wonderful=)

And I also got in to the university and 3 years of studying to be a NURSE! Yay!!! So damn happy! It´s a dream coming true and through my life I´ve had so many different jobs but I have always longed to help people and feel that I do something GOOD for others and a job that is more about heart and head than surface. 

Being in the entertainment business has good sides, for sure, but for me personally, there are also many bad sides. I´m a bit tired of people trying to just take your money, who doesn't care about friendship and only think of what they can win in every situation. It´s a man´s world and it´s necessary to be tough and have really strong elbows and I do, but I also really care for others and to feel a companionship and trust in others I put my career in to there hands. 

I have also had a hard time with the demands to look a certain way, dress a certain way and BE a certain way cause I am and will always be ME. What you see is what you get=)

I will always LOVE to do music, that´s not what I mean, BUT I have gotten so many negative bruises and scars the last years in the business that my love for this has slowly taken away the JOY from it and in the darkest and most lonely moments on tour, all I wanted was a job where I won´t always be judged and criticized whatever I do. Cause believe me, if you have a job where you always have people looking at you, trying to find something wrong with your achievement, even how strong you are and how good confidence you have, it will be a hard ride. Some will survive and think it´s worth it and ok with it but there are so many who just don´t want to continue.

Here in Sweden there´s so many artists who get a fast break through and things spin so fast, the record labels push hard to get them out to play and feel albums and they do a year, maybe 2 and then they are just gone. Burnt out, stressed, lack of motivation and so on and in some cases they come back but in a way where they themselves are more in charge and in a smaller way with a smaller label, or they just fall in to a "normal" job.

I have read so many times when a musician or an artist "complain" about how hard it can be to be a musician. - No money earned, no record sales cause so many download illegal, no promoters paying enough to get a band or an artist to play offering so bad payment that it´s almost as if the band or musician themselves need to pay to play that venue.

Every time someone says anything that its hard or so on - the first thing non-musicians say is: 
- But your work is what you LOVE - it´s not like a "normal" job, you are SO lucky cause the rest of us have to do boring jobs…and so on..

I have always worked in '"normal" jobs to make my living since music has always been so hard to be able to live on. Then I had the privilege to do it as my job for some years so I think I am right to say that NO, being a musician is NOT always easy, fun and just like working with your hobby. And in these days when record sales are going down and there are just to much music to choose from, it´s even harder.

Now this is not meant to be a "bu-hu" poor me statement, no=) I am blessed and I still love to make music and will continue doing that, but I will focus on my studies to get a good education and a profession I can have the rest of my working life and if I can do some gigs in weekends, some festivals I´ll do that and a new album when Ear music feel they want to put it out=)

Now time to sleep=) Thanks for reading and all my love for you who are there for me whatever I do and whoever I choose to be. 


Friday, July 11, 2014

Today it´s SETH´s Birthday!!!

My dear first-born son Seth is 13 years old today=) Wow!! 13 years has passed SO quickly and its hard to believe my "little baby" is now a teenager=)

And a very handsome, warm-hearted, smart boy who loves children and is polite to everyone. 

My song INVINCIBLE was written for Seth and the longing I had to have him back in my 30s.

My dear Seth - I love you so much and you are such a special boy with the biggest heart I know. Always so kind to your brothers! 

LOVE you to the moon and back 1000 times!


Monday, July 07, 2014

Toranda Festival videos=)

Hi all,

Back home from Toranda festival where we played a very late gig in the middle of the night, after EUROPE and indoors and it was a really pleasant and nice relaxed atmosphere where many danced and enjoyed the music=)

Here´s some videos from you tube for you;

Saturday, June 28, 2014

Among jumping frogs and jumping boys and girls=)

While we watched the dark clouds pass away, we packed up and went to the forest they call BRUCE.  Found the lovely spot where they have set up small wooden "houses" to protect us from wind and rain and give shelter.

Some blankets to sit on and we´re ready for an afternoon with sausages and forest fun!

While Johan, our grill master, started up the fire on our small Piccolino grill, me and the kids enjoyed the wind shelter. 

Nemo playing with the small frogs to the FROG GAME I had gotten them the same day to play with. Mio playing with some cars in different colors and me just relaxing watching the boys play=)

All the fun you can have with just a fallen tree branch:

Sit on it
Climb on it
Chew on it
Hammer with another tree branch on it, as a drum
Imagine it´s a boat or a plane or a car or anything

After our yummie turkey sausage dinner with lots of mustard and ketchup, it was time for more fun! 

Johan and Nemo fighting with tree branches pretending they were swords and they were some cool dangerous pirates on board a big pirate ship. Nemo being Captain Hook of course!

Then a wild chase around in the forest throwing little pinecones on each other. 

Continuing to have a battle who could run from one big stone to the other first. Well, Johan won every single time…arrggh!

All of us playing the FROG GAME where me and Johan both got the horns on our heads, wanting to beat the other one0, as usual=) Who said come second counts?? haha!

After a long nice time in this lovely forest, we headed home, all tired but happy and knowing that next week Johan goes back to his job, Nemo to pre-school some days and me - preparing for our gig at Toranda next weekend=)

But STILL two more days to enjoy the vacation=)

Friday, June 27, 2014

My gym - LOVE;=)

I LOVE my gym!!! 

I LOVE to do cross fit!!! 

And I LOVE to be in shape again=)

Yeah, sorry, but today I need to blog about my LOVE for cross fit and my gym - FNF4LIFE!

Today I had a super good morning crossfit WOD together with strong and lovely people at FNF4LIFE.

 My dear gym where I started in november last year. I am SO happy that I dared to spread my wings and try a new place and a new thing and go up there that evening in november. Since then I have not only gotten in a great shape but also gotten to know wonderful people and nowadays Johan and me both long to the gym and almost FIGHT for the exercising days=) 

Today I were at the gym at 8 in the morning and we had a great WOD with Tobbe, focusing on strength and among pistols and dips and so on, we did a LOT of Manmakers. If you don´t know this exercise, I can tell you that it´s a HARD but great one! We did 50 each which actually means we did 100 push ups each today! yeah, hello super arms=)

I feel so happy that I can use my body in all the different ways we do in crossfit and to feel the improvement I make every single week! Amazing and if you like to work out hard and use your body fully, try cross fit! Maybe you´ll get as HOOKED as I am=)

Love and hugs!